Wonderful

I have a cyst on my left ovary BUT the local RE didn't send the measurements over. I have to wait until tomorrow to find out if I'm cancelled or not.

Tick Tock Tick Tock

that's all I'm going to hear all day until I hear about my baseline!! The place that I went for local monitoring was very nice, nice people, much different than my local RE that I used for the first 2 cycles. She saw fluid in the uterus but checked with another girl in the office, they said it was just blood since I'm still cd4. They also noticed a chocolate cyst on the left ovary but that was there in June, it's "normal." I PRAY that I'm not cancelled!!

just another day...

Ok, so, work has just been another day. I guess they are too busy worrying about the horrible real estate market and the layoffs to be concerned with my two weeks out. No one has said anything to me about it today. That's a relief. I just need to get out of here! There is so much tension and stress in here. Two people who were let go have stayed around to help transition their jobs. It's just a horrible situation and it's making me sick. 3 more days of work, 5 more days til we depart! of course, I still have that baseline looming, praying for a good check!!

I'm kinda freaking out...

I told my boss that I needed off for 2 weeks for surgery. I had told him about 3 weeks ago that it was coming so it wasn't a total shock. He didn't seem bothered. I thought that I'd feel a sense of relief but I have MORE anxiety now than before. He is in with the owners, I feel like they are discussing it. I'm afraid that they aren't going to pay me although I have about 6 days so I would get some pay. I'm just plain concerned because I've seen how they've handled letting these people go over the past week. They aren't necessarily the most compassionate people in the world... Hopefully, it just won't be an issue!

I can't believe it!

My calendar from my RE for today and tomorrow says to expect period. It never happens that way though. Usually, I'm 4 days past bcp wondering where the heck my period is! would you believe I woke up and there it was? Now, please please please pray that my baseline check on Thursday goes well. I can't have any cysts or elevated estrogen. I have flights booked already for Sunday, this can't be delayed or cancelled!

On my to do list today is to tell my boss. I put it off considering they were letting people go. I did tell him on June 27th that I'd be needing surgery in a few weeks so it won't be a complete surprise. But, he might be shocked that I need two weeks and the timing isn't very good since the one guy I work with was let go but staying on for two more weeks full time, then part time to transition stuff.

Say some prayers today! I'm anxious about telling him...

Last BCP tonight!

holy smokes! where did the time go? It still hasn't hit me that we leave for Denver next Sunday nevermind that we're doing IVF AGAIN!!!

On another note, I don't think I've discussed this in my blog before but things at my work are bad. VERY BAD. I work for a homebuilder so I don't think I need to explain further. Last June, they let 5 people go, 5 more people were let go this past January. Today, they let another 4 go. So, things aren't looking good. I'm very concerned as to what is going to happen but I've tried to hold on as going to a new employer and asking for time off to do IVF won't go over very well. If I lose my job, we may be forced to put things off. This cycle MUST work! Once I am pregnant, then, I can move which makes no sense but when you need to take 2-3 weeks off at a time to cycle, it just doesn't go over well. So, I would greatly appreciate any job prayers nevermind the successful IVF prayers as well!!! Hope everyone has an awesome weekend!

14 Years Ago...

I see posts so often on the nest and on blogs about one year ago today I was..., of course, they are all positive posts. And, well, one year ago for me was just plain crappy. Hopefully, in one year from today, I will look back and say now I'm pregnant but for now, I have to go with 14 years ago!

Back to my point, 14 years ago, I went on my first date with my wonderful hubby. I didn't even realize until I just looked at my office clock and thought, wait, July 15th! So, I just wanted to share something happy and not IVF related. I remember how excited I was when he called me at home and shocked as well. We went to see True Lies at the movie theater. I can't believe it's been 14 years....