This too shall pass....

I try really hard to not get ahead of myself in this whole IVF game. What if this cycle doesn't work? What if I have another miscarriage? What if I have to do another fresh cycle? so forth and so on.

But, I realized last night that I do need to get ahead of myself sometimes. I need to remember that it won't always be like this. At some point, I will move forward in some way. Of course, I hope that it will be soon and with another child. I won't always be doing IVF and stressing over all these IVF bills which seem to be hitting me left and right now. We will take family vacations again that won't be trips to Denver to do IVF!! Instead, they'll be to Vail to vacation. :) We won't be doing this forever.

This morning, I logged into facebook and saw a quote someone had posted on facebook. It hit home for me. Tomorrow is another day and I certainly believe in miracles!

"...I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day, and I believe in miracles". - Audrey Hepburn

Lucky #7!!

I realized last night that I am starting IVF #7?! I've done 3 fresh cycles and this will be the 4th frozen cycle. Fortunately, frozen cycles are so much easier than fresh cycles! Plus, the first fresh cycle was canceled after retrieval because I hyperstimmed. Also, I didn't do the transfer on the 3rd fresh because everything was frozen for the CGH testing. This will be the 8th/9th embryo/s that we transfer. Our goal is to only transfer one but one step at a time.

It really shocked me to realize how many times I've done this. Honestly, I think I've lost my mind to continue doing this. I'm just hoping it all pays off in the end. I'm hoping that I get to deliver a baby before I grow tired physically and emotionally from doing this!!

I took my first birth control pill last night and ordered my other medications for delivery tomorrow! Here we go (again)!!

CALENDAR!!

Love my nurse!! She is so great and always responds so promptly!

So, here's what we tentatively have:
10/21 - start bcp
11/2 - start lupron (shots)
11/6 - take last bcp
11/9 - period should arrive
11/11 - start estrogen patches
11/17 - Ultrasound and bloodwork
11/26 - Ultrasound and bloodwork
11/28 - start progesterone
12/3 - embryo transfer
12/12 - beta

I'm glad to be getting started but I'd be lying if I didn't say I'm not extremely anxious about this. But, I will try my very best to take things one day at a time and not get ahead of myself.

Time to get started!!

My period arrived this morning and I put my call into the nurse to let her know. Hopefully, I will have my official calendar later today and should start birth control pills on Thursday!

I was sad this morning to see my period. I know it's not likely but I always hope that we can on conceive on our own!